I never knowingly “top from the bottom”. That does not mean to say I will not do it unintentionally. Intent or not, it is still wrong and inappropriate.
Discover More →The destruction of pride, vanity, ego and dignity involves education as well as intent. Initially there was resistance to this process. I am certain my humility is a long way from her requirements and there is still a long way to go. Despite my willingness to embrace this desire of my Goddess, it is difficult.
Discover More →A refreshing mojito in the bar, along with a shared surf and turf platter (by shared, I mean I let slave eat the messy chicken wings I didn’t want) and I was ready to go back to the room for some fun before it was time for dinner. A pre-session warm-up, if you will.
Instructing him to strip down to thong and chastity device beneath, I got my weapons of choice ready. I’d brought plenty of equipment and particularly looked forward to using the sensory deprivation hood (albeit without phallus gag which a friend accidentally kept after borrowing the piece) as well as my long flogger and a strait jacket.
Discover More →We know that I exist for your pleasure. These are glib words and sentiments narrated by many submissives. It is one thing to say it, but what happens if it really becomes sincere. What happens if a slave truly puts the pleasure of his owner above his own.
Discover More →I don’t believe that BDSM ‘sadists’ are sadists in the vanilla sense of the word – or at least they shouldn’t be. If you want to inflict pain or harm on others with or without consent you shouldn’t be in the scene. If someone doesn’t get some kind of fulfilment out of the pain then why would they consent? They are always linked. What you get might not be strictly pleasure, it may not always be enjoyment – but it is always fulfilment. When I push your limits, when I verbally humiliate you, when I bully you, when I make you feel miniscule, when I frighten you, when I exhilarate you simply with my Dominant presence, I am fulfilling what you need. It’s actually a very kind thing. Even when you’re crying and feeling broken and hating me and wondering why the fuck you think you’re submissive and a slave and how you’re allowing someone half your age to treat you like this and how I can make you feel like this when no one else can or has ever been able to.
Discover More →I met with her twice during the first month in which I was in chastity. Those meetings confirmed to me that she was not just a special Mistress but a wonderful woman. A woman who warrants the utmost respect. Intelligent, talented and caring to those deserving that care and love. That however, certainly did not include her slaves.
She also had the capacity and desire to treat her slaves with cruelty and took pleasure from being evil. She has taught me the true meaning of slavery. I am not allowed to merely accept my weaknesses, inadequacies and those things I am denied. I must learn to absorb myself in those sacrifices and failings so that I suffer and hurt. The internal sense of self worth that previous Mistresses have effectively encouraged me to retain have been stripped away by her. My ego, pride and dignity have painfully been stripped away and I embrace the true inadequacies that make me a slave.
Discover More →I donned the shinies and spiky heels and was the hostess of the day. I sat on the Queen’s throne and was shown around every part of the new play space and kinky shop. It was great fun. I also enjoyed catching up with Dom Strap On and her crew. Then came my moment in the spotlight – the photo shoot and whipping session.
There were three girls dolled up and ready to submit to whatever punishment I saw fit to bestow. I chose a heavy weight flogger, beautifully balanced and versatile for light teasing strokes up to a really vicious sting. Tracy took the pain best – it’s like she had some prior experience as a sub ;)
Discover More →I just came… thinking about that scene. But I’m not just sat on the chair, I’m sat on his cock, on his lap while on the chair. And you’re so close not only to my pussy but to where his fat juicy cock is buried inside me. And your arse is getting pounded by the team. And you still can’t edge forwards away from them or closer to me without pain.
Discover More →Seems to me like there are many ready to cast judgment on others, sadly even so-called ‘sister’ Dommes and Mistresses in the UK and from all over the world. The most recent of which is a comment on a product shoot photograph where I am wearing cuffs and a collar. Does wearing certain attire change your orientation? If I wear a t-shirt with “I’m a gay man” written on it, does that transform me instantly into a gay man?
As well as wearing the bondage accessories for a photo shoot, I do actually enjoy bondage – as part of a wild and varied sex life. I don’t see this as submission – in fact I’m getting what I want, when I want, however I damn well want it, thank you very much.
If you want to find out more – you can read my latest blog post over on my sex blog website here.